Spoke to soon :(

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I’m tired and want t sleep but It seems both kids are coming down with something 😦

I picked my daughter up from school today and she seemed to have a sore throat and a cough. Not too bad, unpleasant, but everyone gets something. However I want to go to bed now and not only can I hear her coughing,  but littlist boy is coughing so badly he can’t sleep!

Im currently sat in my bed with little man now trying to get him back to sleep. It seems to be quite a ticklish cough as it just won’t stop and a soon as he does he is waking himself up, he is clearly exhausted too just like me!

I have a feeling it’s going to be a long night, and to top it all off I have work tomorrow too – MUST GET SLEEP!

Infection & Infusion

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I will honestly say that it’s now October,  i’m on my 3rd month of treatment and I still don’t fully understand how everything works.

2 days before treatment day and I wake up through the night with symptoms of a water infection. Now I know one of the side effects of my treatment is water infections, I had mentioned I’d suffered with these for years when I was speaking to my MS nurse and the Dr has never really done much about them. I am in the process of being referred to urology by my nurse to see if we can work out why I get them anyway I was worried I wouldn’t be able to have my treatment with an infection so I rang my nurse and asked if I can drop a sample in to be checked.

Treatment day, the symptoms have died down and I’ve not heard anything back about my sample. So I’m all hooked up ready to go. Going through the check list with the nurse and I mention my possible infection,  things are checked and I DO have a water infection? another sample given and calls to the MS nurse, then it’s decided I can still have my treatment I just need some antibiotics. Not sure if I should be concerned,  but I was just glad I could still have my treatment

How bad is infection with tysabri?  what will it do? anything?  mot much? how concerned should I be about infections? I told you I still don’t quite understand!

I did have a great time on the ward tho, there was some right characters in with me and it was a great laugh! It’s always a good atmosphere and I feel really comfortable there, the nurses are starting to remember me and it’s not daunting at all, my chair even reclined this time so I had little to complain about. I’m nearly finished my book too so going to have to start looking for another good one to read soon.

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I am determined to not be ill this winter, I have been taking my vitamins and had my flu jab, but with two small children who will pick up everything going I need to keep myself going. I just don’t have the time to be ill. I also don’t want to take time off work, I don’t want to have to explain myself and im worried it will make me look ‘sick’ and I’ll become unreliable or people with think I’m playing on it, it’s easier for people to say how well your coping.

The weather has really changed today and it really feels like autumn now. The kids have there dressing gown and slippers on and the cosy bedding has came out too. Not bad for making it to October.  I’m just hoping for a mild winter with as few bugs as possible for us all. There is nothing worse than having a poorly household.  It just bounces from one to the other and it’s exhausting!  I remember the vomiting bug from last year that had my washer running constantly with nowhere to dry everything.

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I do actually really like autumn & winter, I prefer cosy dark nights to long sunny days. It’s homely 🙂 Soup, pjs, cosy blankets & mugs of tea – bliss.

Hi, can I place a food order for delivery please?

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Life moves so fast for everyone these days I suppose, you don’t need an illness like MS to run you down. Life has a way of doing that for you. I’m trying to stop it but so far i’m just clinging on for dear like and hoping for the best!

Like yesterday, I was running around like I was superwoman as I had all the energy in the world and a million things that needed done, but boy i’m paying for it today.

I was up at 6, showered, dressed for work (hair washed, dried and straightened with make up on!) and breakfast all done for me and the kids to be leaving the house at 8am! This on its own is a HUGE task in itself.

All in the car, dropped my daughter off for breakfast club at her school, then me and little man back in the car to drop him at nursery. I then stopped at the shops for nappies and veg and was at work for 9am! Still feeling great at this point

Finished work at 2:45pm, back to collect my daughter from school, then off to collect little man from nursery, meeting my husband from work on the way home and 4 of us back in the house just before 4pm.

Quick tea was made for the kids (ham & cheese toasties with cucumber sticks.) My mam then came round as me and we were at our 3rd session of ‘making sense of MS’ so off out we go again. I’m the only one who drives so back in the car, i’m tired now and could do without going back out but it’s our last week so off we go.

The session was good, I enjoy spending the time just me and my husband out the house and able to have a conversation with each other. It was a question & answer session this week with a visit from the MS society too, there was also lots of information to take away to read later, some things I’d not even thought about either and some good ‘just incase’ stuff too. I was glad we went.

By the time we were finished and home it was after 7pm, and yes both kids were still awake (but thankfully at least clean and in pjs) We didn’t eat till late, and of course ordered a take away (no good for me at all!) We were both tired by now and ready for bed. Thankfully both kids sleep through most of the time so we at least had an undisturbed night.

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Not all my days are as mad as this, I only work 3 days a week and try to avoid any manic evening appointments, but it shows how easy it is for things to get too much too quickly for anyone.

Some things I have no control over,
• School/nursery run & work.
Then there is:
• Shopping/appointments and kids activities, these happen but are not as strict, I could always re arrange,  cancel or ask for help.
Then I have things like:
• Housework – washing clothes is a constant with kids, cooking – meals for kids, snacks and then an evening meal for us.
Then finally if there is anything left it’s spent on:
• Quality time with my husband – family time for us all or time to ourselves to recharge.

This is hard for anyone who works with a family, and would be hard regardless of MS I think. I’m just still trying to find a balance I suppose, my daughter is 5 and little man is 14 months, I’ve not long gone back to work from maternity leave too.

I find, I’m starting to have to make choices on where my energy goes. Usually the things I don’t have the energy for are the shopping and cooking. Asda on a Friday afternoon with a baby in tow is bad enough,  carrying the shopping up a flight of stairs at home is a nightmare.

The cooking is where I quit most of all, after a crazy day I can’t face making a meal at 8pm eating it, and then doing the dishes and tidying up before bed. I need to stop this as bad food = bad health & less energy and the whole cycle continues.

I need a good plan, the trouble is its 20 past 8 at night, the kids have just gone down (littlist put up a fight tonight) I’ve not made anything for tea yet and I don’t have enough energy to think straight let along make a plan today.

Maybe tomorrow. Or maybe not.

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