10 things that makes me happy :)

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I wanted to write 10 things that make me happy, not people, as everyone has amazing people who make them so happy in life, and yes I have mine too. I wanted to write a few little things that make me happy, brighten my day and make me smile.

#1 A hot cup of tea, in a big fat mug when you can actually sit down for 5 minutes. 🍵

#2 Flowers – instantly brighten my day, in the park or a bunch given to me, I love seeing them. 🌻🌼

#3 Pajamas – as soon as I get home and im in for the night I have my pj’s on. Heaven 🙂 🌙🌛

#4 Getting my hair done – (this does not happen often enough) I love it when it’s just been cut and styled and you walk out of the hairdressers feeling amazing.

#5 Movie days – i love it when the weather is cold and me and the kids stay in and watch movies in our onesis with popcorn.

#6 Pizza 🙂 chilled out Saturday night, no cooking or dishes to do, hot pizza to tuck into! 🍕

#7 Reading a good book – i love it when you read a book that you CAN’T put down, I love being engrossed in it and unable to wait to see what happens. 📖

#8 Sunny days driving with the windows down in the car and some good music on – everything us better with sunshine added! 🌞🎶

#9 A hot shower when you feel like you have scrubbed several layers of skin off and your all fresh and clean – even better with clean pj’s and clean bedding too. ⤵

#10 My bed! it is the best place in the world to be, it’s so comfy and I look forward to getting into it each night!

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Of course there is people who make me happy and these are so important and irreplaceable to me.

My family, from my amazing husband,  my gorgeous and clever children to my life saver of a mam. I wouldn’t function without these people and im so happy to have them in my life. 💟

My friends for similar reasons, my best friend who has seen me at my best and worst, and still has the kettle on at a moments notice! The friend’s I can talk to about anything,  who make me laugh,  who spur me on don’t judge me. I’m happy and grateful they tolerate me!

The big and little things make us happy so try to appreciate them all.

My body for not giving up on me yet!

What a week!

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Well Monday was my first day back to work after 14 months of maternity leave. It was so nice to be back and it was nice to be ‘me’ again for a few hours, I work in a small busy office with some lovely people and I’d forgotten how nice it can be to be working and not just a ‘mam’ at home and school.

Definite highlights of returning to work are drinking a cup of tea while it is hot,  going to the bathroom alone, chatting about things other than Dora the Explorer, being allowed to think my own thoughts for a bit without interruptions was lovely too, I had forgotten what it was like when my head wasn’t racing at 100 mph with the stress of home, work is just as busy but it’s a different kind and I feel more productive.

Not so good things were, my arm and wrist ached really bad from all the writing, typing and paperwork, I’ve had to take a lot.of pain killers to get me through this week, i’m hoping it’s just because I’m not used to it. The hour at the beginning and end of my work day which is spent dropping off and collecting the kids is ridiculous, I have to go miles out my was to drop the youngest off first, then come practically home to take the eldest to school and then head back the way I came to get to work. Finally I was surprised how exhausted I was by lunchtime on Wednesday,  I was actually watching the clock and could feel myself going slower and was ready to sleep. It’s a good job i’m part time and only work Monday – Wednesday or I’d have been in trouble.

Since I’m only at work the first half of the week I get to spend Thursday and Friday at home. My daughter has just started reception class so for the first time since he was born me and my little man get two whole days together. My daughter is loving ‘big school’ and is  thrilled to be staying for her lunch, she has a lot of friends and has settled in amazing, although she is exhausted by the end of the day. My little man didn’t really get a lot out of our two days together this week tho, he is full of cold so we mostly spend them in the house. Think I might try to find a play group on a Friday to take him to next week, there is a sure start centre close to us which has a sensory room he would love too. Feel a bit bad we don’t do a lot of these things, but over the 6 weeks we had to do things that were suitable for both kids ages, he will like some things just for him.

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It was also my wedding anniversary this week, me and my husband have been married for 2 years and I got the most beautiful card and flowers from him, they were gorgeous. We have been together for 12 years and got married after 10, he is my best friend and has been amazing this last year too 🙂

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Ok enough slushy stuff…… My next stress has began already! 

My a daughter is 5 next week and we have organised a disco for her, this was what she requested and honestly it has been a nightmare and cost a small fortune! The venue we had suddenly closed and when the brewery went in the person had taken the deposit and book showing we had paid for a party! After a lot of stress and phone calls we have a room and our deposit has been honoured. I just need to pay the remaining balance for the cake, confirm times with the princess who is making and appearance,  go in and decorate  the room and fill the party bags! Then at some point pay the dj, princess and venue for the food!

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NEVER AGAIN!

I’ve just gone back to work so money is tight as it is and I’ve had to pay the nursery £360 last week for my little man to attend 2 days a week.  We are officially skint now, oh dear, well I’m sure the kids will love it.

Went for a run last night,  didn’t do as good as I wanted and we walked half the way back. Think I was just so tired after this week,  they had just finished clearing up after the GNR and there was a few runners out, noticed how dark it is getting now on a night,  it was very blustery too – definitely autumn setting in. Might try to go again on Sunday night, will see how I feel.

Going to have some family time this weekend and then do it all again next week!

Life waits for no one

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Had the best conversation today, me and my husband were discussing mortgages, bills and boring things like that, then during this conversation we ended up making a decision to just carry on as normal. This got me thinking,  I have had such a strange year, my health being only one of the crazy things that gas gone on, and yet we carry on as normal.

I’m going back to work tomorrow after a long 14 months of maternity/holiday leave, I took the full entitlement to enable me to be a ‘stay at home mam’ for a year. My life has been all over the place this year tho, and to be honest it still is a bit, but tomorrow is a big day for us all. My daughter goes to reception class full days tomorrow(she is beyond excited to stay for school dinners),  my not so baby boy is starting nursery class for 2 days while I’m working. And yes i go back to the day job. I’ve now found myself in the familiar Sunday night routine.

•School back packed, uniform ready. •Nursery back packed, forms filled in and clothes laid out.
•Work clothes hanging up and lunch all sorted.
•Breakfast set up ready for in the morning,  alarms all set and yes everyone has been bathed!

Back to normal.

That’s what works best,  back to what is familiar,  what needs to be done and what we do as part of our normal lives. Because life waits for no one and if I don’t get back to normal I fear I may not be living it at all.

2nd treatment & 2nd wedding anniversary

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I’ll be honest it’s not as nice as last month. The needle and infusion are totally fine but my chair is broken and uncomfortable,  it is stuck upright and doesn’t recline (1st world problems) and im sat in a draft too! I’m sure I’ll get over it though 🙂

Ok whine over then – the staff are lovely, it’s a great atmosphere and nothing is too much trouble. I’m on my second cup of tea and lunch will be hear shortly. I can’t really complain!

I was prepared this time with my book, snacks and drinks all ready to keep me going. I even had time to go shopping for new work shoes before my appointment without children, This is classed as a luxury indeed.  This has turned into a lovely me day when I have my treatment, turn a negative into a positive I say 🙂

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Really looking forward to tonight too as me and my husband are going to see Ant & Dec on the takeaway tour in Newcastle, it’s our second wedding anniversary next week so having a night out together tonight – can’t wait 🙂 It’s lovely to get some time just the two of us and go out together. My mam is going to babysit for us so kids will be all sorted.

Ok i’m going to read my book and wait for lunch, all good! Apart from a numb bum

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Nursery, Big school & Work

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The time is getting closer, my little man will be going to a nursery 2 days a week, when I go back to work from maternity leave in September.

I will have been off nearly 14 months when I go back as I had a months holiday added to the beginning and end of my 12 months leave. I’m looking forward to a change of routine and some adult conversation the most,  but im not looking forward to leaving the kids.

I am gutted he will be going, and know he will hate being left 😦 but I know he will love it once he settles in, he needs to play with other kids and will get so much from it. The biggest reason tho is I NEED to go back to work, maternity pay sucks and im amazed we have survived this long really.

He had a home visit today, this is where the nursery staff visit him in his own home environment to introduce themselves. I think it’s to have a nosey at your house really 🙂 he was a little shy at first but once they started playing with toys he was happy.

He is going in for a 2 hour visit on Thursday morning and im going to leave him 😦 i’m not looking forward to that! I’m sure I will be worse than him tho and once he starts to play (or its snack time) he will be fine.

I only work 3 days a week and the hours are not too long, so it shouldn’t be too bad, it’s not like he will be in for a really long day. Then once I have picked him and my daughter up we should be home for 4 pm at the latest, ready for tea and family time before bed.

My daughter went to nursery 3 days a week when she was younger, she is very happy and confident, although I think that’s in her nature. She will be starting reception class the week I start back at work and she is so excited.

With her being one of the oldest in the class, she has done 2 years on pre school nursery. She has been desperate to join the ‘big school’ and can’t wait to stay for dinners.

Where does the time go? It seems like not long ago I was returning to work after having my daughter and preparing for her first day at nursery.

So I’m going to enjoy the last week or so of the summer holidays with my 2 monsters before our routine changes ready for nursery, big school and work.

Laughter is the best medicine 💗

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When you have a small moment that has a huge impact, and suddenly your pulled back into the right way of thinking.

Last night me and my husband were discussing my MS and how things may change for us. I was dwelling on small trivial things that I shouldn’t . The sudden realisation that this is permanent and i’m going to have this forever had suddenly sunk in. I had really hoped I would take it better.

It had somehow turned into a serious and quite negative conversation which helps no one, I found myself fixating on stupid things and could tell if this went on my head would start spinning. I’m usually not like this and hate the whole feel of talking like this. Maybe it’s because I hadn’t seen him all day and have to talk at 100 miles an hour about every random thought I’ve had! Something I know that drives him mad haha.

My lovely, amazing husband then manages to have me in hysterics, literally crying with laughter. Love how someone knows exactly what you need at just the right time. This is how I know we will be fine, no matter what comes at us or how bad it may be.