What a week!

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Well Monday was my first day back to work after 14 months of maternity leave. It was so nice to be back and it was nice to be ‘me’ again for a few hours, I work in a small busy office with some lovely people and I’d forgotten how nice it can be to be working and not just a ‘mam’ at home and school.

Definite highlights of returning to work are drinking a cup of tea while it is hot,  going to the bathroom alone, chatting about things other than Dora the Explorer, being allowed to think my own thoughts for a bit without interruptions was lovely too, I had forgotten what it was like when my head wasn’t racing at 100 mph with the stress of home, work is just as busy but it’s a different kind and I feel more productive.

Not so good things were, my arm and wrist ached really bad from all the writing, typing and paperwork, I’ve had to take a lot.of pain killers to get me through this week, i’m hoping it’s just because I’m not used to it. The hour at the beginning and end of my work day which is spent dropping off and collecting the kids is ridiculous, I have to go miles out my was to drop the youngest off first, then come practically home to take the eldest to school and then head back the way I came to get to work. Finally I was surprised how exhausted I was by lunchtime on Wednesday,  I was actually watching the clock and could feel myself going slower and was ready to sleep. It’s a good job i’m part time and only work Monday – Wednesday or I’d have been in trouble.

Since I’m only at work the first half of the week I get to spend Thursday and Friday at home. My daughter has just started reception class so for the first time since he was born me and my little man get two whole days together. My daughter is loving ‘big school’ and is  thrilled to be staying for her lunch, she has a lot of friends and has settled in amazing, although she is exhausted by the end of the day. My little man didn’t really get a lot out of our two days together this week tho, he is full of cold so we mostly spend them in the house. Think I might try to find a play group on a Friday to take him to next week, there is a sure start centre close to us which has a sensory room he would love too. Feel a bit bad we don’t do a lot of these things, but over the 6 weeks we had to do things that were suitable for both kids ages, he will like some things just for him.

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It was also my wedding anniversary this week, me and my husband have been married for 2 years and I got the most beautiful card and flowers from him, they were gorgeous. We have been together for 12 years and got married after 10, he is my best friend and has been amazing this last year too 🙂

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Ok enough slushy stuff…… My next stress has began already! 

My a daughter is 5 next week and we have organised a disco for her, this was what she requested and honestly it has been a nightmare and cost a small fortune! The venue we had suddenly closed and when the brewery went in the person had taken the deposit and book showing we had paid for a party! After a lot of stress and phone calls we have a room and our deposit has been honoured. I just need to pay the remaining balance for the cake, confirm times with the princess who is making and appearance,  go in and decorate  the room and fill the party bags! Then at some point pay the dj, princess and venue for the food!

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NEVER AGAIN!

I’ve just gone back to work so money is tight as it is and I’ve had to pay the nursery £360 last week for my little man to attend 2 days a week.  We are officially skint now, oh dear, well I’m sure the kids will love it.

Went for a run last night,  didn’t do as good as I wanted and we walked half the way back. Think I was just so tired after this week,  they had just finished clearing up after the GNR and there was a few runners out, noticed how dark it is getting now on a night,  it was very blustery too – definitely autumn setting in. Might try to go again on Sunday night, will see how I feel.

Going to have some family time this weekend and then do it all again next week!

Aches & Pains

My wrist and shoulder hurt a lot today, I was trying to explain it to my husband, its like someone has stamped on my wrist and slammed me into a concrete wall, its like the pain is coming from inside the bone, its really weird trying to discribe it as it sounds so exaggerated and I couldn’t think of something to compare it too. It started hurting yesterday, and by last night it was agony. I’m not a huge fan of pain killers but have been taking them more and more the last few months just to get by.

The problem I have is I can’t take anything too strong,  I get up through the night with the kids sometimes and don’t want to be like a zombie, and I’m home with them through the day and use the car a lot. I was originally given a stronger painkiller by my GP after I’d said paracetamol and ibrufen did not take the pain away, so I’d taken 2 of tge strong ones one  morning, and after an hour I was really foggy headed and not with it at all. I was actually driving the car and a felt floaty, that is never good!

It took a little while to realise it was the tablets that were making me like this, so unfortunately they had to go. They were replace by something not as strong, I don’t feel floaty and out of it, but they hardly touch the pain! Especially on a night time. 

I struggle to get comfortable in bed as my wrist hurts when it bends (impossible if you sleep on your side) and my shoulder either can’t take the weight on it all night, but if I turn over it aches like it needs a support for it. I can’t win, then usually if your really settled and comfy a small person will wake you for something.

I’m lucky so far the pain isn’t a constant, it does flare up tho, its probably bad now as I’ve been running twice last week. The movement of my arms when I run I think makes it flare up more for a few days, I enjoy running and don’t want to stop. Anyway carrying a 1 year old around makes it flare up too, I should probably stop that rather than the running as he weighs a ton these days 🙂

Off to take some more tablets and hopefully get some sleep … Night 

 

Let’s look after me

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I went for a run last night, it’s been about a month since ive been so really sore today 😩. I didn’t realise how much I missed it, I think I need to make sure I have time to go at least once a week, especially while the weather is still fine. It’s great for clearing your head and getting out of the house.

I first started running last year. It was something I always wanted to do but never thought I could do it, I barely walk places, always take the car and have no fitness ability at all.. Me and my friend just run up and down the coast beside our house, which is 5k and a beautiful route. With having 2 kids under 5 I don’t get a lot of time to myself, so I usually get the kids in bed and head out at about 8 pm. In the summer this is amazing, and the views and coast line are gorgeous,  in the winter it’s bitter cold and is so pitch black it looks like a horror movie  😱

I started originally because I wanted my body back after having my son, we had decided no more kids, I wanted to feel fit and healthy and run around with my kids.  I had joined slimming world about a month before and was loosing weight but wanted to exercise too. I also wanted something for me, some time to focus on myself and to get out for a bit.

After we had been running for a while we decided to aim for something, so we entered a 10k race. We completed this in July of this year raising £285 for Macmillan in the process. It was an amazing day and I totally got the bug, I love the freedom of running and the atmosphere of a race. I wanted to do more, our aim is to enter the GNR next year and complete some more 10k races alongside our training.

All this was before my diagnosis,  this was me 2 stone lighter and the fittest I’d been in years. So why in the last month have I been totally off track?

My MS hasn’t changed me as a person, it has given me more to think about tho. I want to be as fit and healthy as I can be for as long as possible.  I want to run for as long as I can, I want to take care of my body so I’m as strong and in the best shape I can be. But most of all i just want to be the me I was before.

This isn’t really about my MS I suppose,  it’s just my life and what I want to do and MS won’t get in the way of that if I don’t let it.

When MS was very first mentioned by the Dr I thought there was no way it could be, I knew very little about it but thought of people tired and with mobility issues and that was not me. I remember telling my running partner and saying “it can’t be, people with MS don’t run!” Well I do and I will carry on as long as possible. 

Look out for more medals 👟🏃