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Life moves so fast for everyone these days I suppose, you don’t need an illness like MS to run you down. Life has a way of doing that for you. I’m trying to stop it but so far i’m just clinging on for dear like and hoping for the best!

Like yesterday, I was running around like I was superwoman as I had all the energy in the world and a million things that needed done, but boy i’m paying for it today.

I was up at 6, showered, dressed for work (hair washed, dried and straightened with make up on!) and breakfast all done for me and the kids to be leaving the house at 8am! This on its own is a HUGE task in itself.

All in the car, dropped my daughter off for breakfast club at her school, then me and little man back in the car to drop him at nursery. I then stopped at the shops for nappies and veg and was at work for 9am! Still feeling great at this point

Finished work at 2:45pm, back to collect my daughter from school, then off to collect little man from nursery, meeting my husband from work on the way home and 4 of us back in the house just before 4pm.

Quick tea was made for the kids (ham & cheese toasties with cucumber sticks.) My mam then came round as me and we were at our 3rd session of ‘making sense of MS’ so off out we go again. I’m the only one who drives so back in the car, i’m tired now and could do without going back out but it’s our last week so off we go.

The session was good, I enjoy spending the time just me and my husband out the house and able to have a conversation with each other. It was a question & answer session this week with a visit from the MS society too, there was also lots of information to take away to read later, some things I’d not even thought about either and some good ‘just incase’ stuff too. I was glad we went.

By the time we were finished and home it was after 7pm, and yes both kids were still awake (but thankfully at least clean and in pjs) We didn’t eat till late, and of course ordered a take away (no good for me at all!) We were both tired by now and ready for bed. Thankfully both kids sleep through most of the time so we at least had an undisturbed night.

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Not all my days are as mad as this, I only work 3 days a week and try to avoid any manic evening appointments, but it shows how easy it is for things to get too much too quickly for anyone.

Some things I have no control over,
• School/nursery run & work.
Then there is:
• Shopping/appointments and kids activities, these happen but are not as strict, I could always re arrange,  cancel or ask for help.
Then I have things like:
• Housework – washing clothes is a constant with kids, cooking – meals for kids, snacks and then an evening meal for us.
Then finally if there is anything left it’s spent on:
• Quality time with my husband – family time for us all or time to ourselves to recharge.

This is hard for anyone who works with a family, and would be hard regardless of MS I think. I’m just still trying to find a balance I suppose, my daughter is 5 and little man is 14 months, I’ve not long gone back to work from maternity leave too.

I find, I’m starting to have to make choices on where my energy goes. Usually the things I don’t have the energy for are the shopping and cooking. Asda on a Friday afternoon with a baby in tow is bad enough,  carrying the shopping up a flight of stairs at home is a nightmare.

The cooking is where I quit most of all, after a crazy day I can’t face making a meal at 8pm eating it, and then doing the dishes and tidying up before bed. I need to stop this as bad food = bad health & less energy and the whole cycle continues.

I need a good plan, the trouble is its 20 past 8 at night, the kids have just gone down (littlist put up a fight tonight) I’ve not made anything for tea yet and I don’t have enough energy to think straight let along make a plan today.

Maybe tomorrow. Or maybe not.

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Life waits for no one

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Had the best conversation today, me and my husband were discussing mortgages, bills and boring things like that, then during this conversation we ended up making a decision to just carry on as normal. This got me thinking,  I have had such a strange year, my health being only one of the crazy things that gas gone on, and yet we carry on as normal.

I’m going back to work tomorrow after a long 14 months of maternity/holiday leave, I took the full entitlement to enable me to be a ‘stay at home mam’ for a year. My life has been all over the place this year tho, and to be honest it still is a bit, but tomorrow is a big day for us all. My daughter goes to reception class full days tomorrow(she is beyond excited to stay for school dinners),  my not so baby boy is starting nursery class for 2 days while I’m working. And yes i go back to the day job. I’ve now found myself in the familiar Sunday night routine.

•School back packed, uniform ready. •Nursery back packed, forms filled in and clothes laid out.
•Work clothes hanging up and lunch all sorted.
•Breakfast set up ready for in the morning,  alarms all set and yes everyone has been bathed!

Back to normal.

That’s what works best,  back to what is familiar,  what needs to be done and what we do as part of our normal lives. Because life waits for no one and if I don’t get back to normal I fear I may not be living it at all.

Nursery, Big school & Work

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The time is getting closer, my little man will be going to a nursery 2 days a week, when I go back to work from maternity leave in September.

I will have been off nearly 14 months when I go back as I had a months holiday added to the beginning and end of my 12 months leave. I’m looking forward to a change of routine and some adult conversation the most,  but im not looking forward to leaving the kids.

I am gutted he will be going, and know he will hate being left 😦 but I know he will love it once he settles in, he needs to play with other kids and will get so much from it. The biggest reason tho is I NEED to go back to work, maternity pay sucks and im amazed we have survived this long really.

He had a home visit today, this is where the nursery staff visit him in his own home environment to introduce themselves. I think it’s to have a nosey at your house really 🙂 he was a little shy at first but once they started playing with toys he was happy.

He is going in for a 2 hour visit on Thursday morning and im going to leave him 😦 i’m not looking forward to that! I’m sure I will be worse than him tho and once he starts to play (or its snack time) he will be fine.

I only work 3 days a week and the hours are not too long, so it shouldn’t be too bad, it’s not like he will be in for a really long day. Then once I have picked him and my daughter up we should be home for 4 pm at the latest, ready for tea and family time before bed.

My daughter went to nursery 3 days a week when she was younger, she is very happy and confident, although I think that’s in her nature. She will be starting reception class the week I start back at work and she is so excited.

With her being one of the oldest in the class, she has done 2 years on pre school nursery. She has been desperate to join the ‘big school’ and can’t wait to stay for dinners.

Where does the time go? It seems like not long ago I was returning to work after having my daughter and preparing for her first day at nursery.

So I’m going to enjoy the last week or so of the summer holidays with my 2 monsters before our routine changes ready for nursery, big school and work.

Nursery visits & A&E

Well today started out like any other, the usual madness in my house of getting the kids and me all ready to go out. My daughter was having a day with my parents while i took the littlist for his nursery visit to meet the staff before he starts his settling in visits.

The visit went really well, he was really shy & clingy for a bit but started playing with the others towards the end. When the snacks came out I thought I could have left him then and there! He was straight at the table for a bit banana.

I don’t think he will find it too hard to settle in come September. I’m still not looking forward to it but I feel a bit better now he has been. I have been home with him for a whole year so not sure how he was going to cope. My little girl started nursery at 8 months and it was hard at first but she did love it once she was in.

I also had to pop into work as they need a copy of my passport for there files, so after going home and a frantic search for it (why is it not in the import documents files with all the other stuff?) I was off out again,  baby and
bags in tow – all rushing today.

I arrive at work and feeling a bit funny, like dizzy, sick and a bit floaty. Decided it was probably the heat in the car, the rushing round and the fact I skipped breakfast this morning in the chaos.

Then after I left work I was really shaking, felt really dizzy and sick and like I would pass out. My friend lives juat around the corner so I went to her house as I had little man with me and I was driving. I thought ill have a cuppa and sit till it passes. I still wasn’t concerned just thought I’d done too much today.

I was there a couple of hours but I still felt unwell. I rang my mam and went home. She came and helped me with the kids and I thought I’d ring the hospital and see if this was common after treatment as they had told me to call if I felt unwell at anytime.

After speaking to the ward they asked if I’d spoken to my MS nurse, erm, she is on holiday and I’m a bit new at this, i’m not sure who i should call? They rang back after checking with a Dr and advised me to see my GP or local walk in centre. Off I went to walk in as getting a GP appointment for less than 2 weeks time is hard enough. My mam was driving and the kids both loaded into the car.

I waited at the walk in centre while my mam took the kids to her house as it was tea time and they were getting hungry. I was then told that walk in can’t deal with me and I need to go to A&E. Great. Here I was with no car or money on me needing to go to A&E (back in the town we have just came from!) and I don’t feel particularly well. I just wanted to go home, I’ve wasted enough time and feel if it was that important surely I would have been seen by my hospital when I rang? This is probably just a bug or a normal side effect and I’ve spent the whole afternoon feeling lousy going from one town to the next and wasting my time!

So here I am sat in A&E waiting to see someone to probably be told i’m fine. I just want to go to bed 😦 My mam is dropping the kids back off home as my husband will be in from work now, so at least they are sorted. It’s not really fair to lump this on him when he has just got home tho.

It’s never just a normal day…..